Dating With Kids

Ok, I sent two emails last night trying to explain myself to my long distance boyfriend. My last email told him that if he wanted to break up that I would understand. I told him that I would be heart broken but that I would understand. I slept on this and yikes, I realized that I had basically told my boyfriend to break up with me. I do not want this. I just wanted to feel like we were dating again. The smiles and laughter that had left our conversations was what I wanted.

I sent another email this morning trying to do some damage control. I know that I may have melted down on him too much. I do not know what will come of this. I pray that we stay together, but I just do not know.