Nov 12 2008
My Decision
I had another long talk with my boyfriend. Yes, he is my boyfriend again. We talked about many things. I asked him what he was capable of with our relationship. I know that he does not know how to love or how to tell if he is in love. I told him that to make s decision on what I wanted to do that I needed as much information that he could give me. Of course, he is unsure of exactly how to answer that. Finally he explained more of what his mind is thinking about. He told me that I am his best friend. I am the first person that he always wants to share what happens in his life. He pointed out that when something happens that he wants to share that he is very quick to text me about it. I know how much he truly hates texting so I know this is very important. This is the type of information that I needed. These were some of the explanation of I care for you and have feelings for you but I do not know if it is love.
My boyfriend told me that after his therapist told him what he thought we should do that he told him that he wanted to keep me as his girlfriend. His therapist told him that was unfair to me. This is why he tried to give me the opening to breakup. I feel much better that we talked and expressed what was going on in our minds and stopped trying to make the other one happy in the way that we think they should be.